Fleabag and Mayaanandhi.

Saw fleabag last night and Mayaanadhi before that. Okay, both stories felt so similiar, but Mayaanadhi was more crushing. both had a resolution that was acceptable and had given us time to resolve and internaize that it was for the good. But, damn, Haven't cried like this in months. Don't have to cook and cut onions anymore.

Mayaanadhi, more than the tale and the ending, what struck was the leading girl. this Aparna Devi, I haven't felt a character I resonated so much with. This crushing loneliness and failure she goes through and the fact of being let down. The writer must be genius. I remember this particular scene where she goes home tired, exhausted and still tries to be there for her friend inspite of how exhausted she was. this takes so much brilliance to write. The ending of course, a hour of crying sesh. I, though I love movies that end tragic, I want it to end beautiful and happy. here, somehow I did feel happy even if it ended tragic. She has to accept and that's the most painful calming experience, only next to fleabag.

Had delayed watching fleabag, but finally got down to it. I kind of went through the seasons with ease, feeling that fleabag was almost me minus the constant excessive sex as a coping mechanism. I have other coping mechanisms. But as a person who lived with her through a season, suddenly meets Andrew Scott as the hot priest. I can say that in this entire life i haven't seen something like this. The first time they meet, when he asks for a cigarette and leaves, he says 'Fuck you, then', which is a trademark fleabag thing. I suddenly meet the male version of fleabag but yet so different. The fourth wall break has never been better. I want to warn her to stay away, but who ever does. the transition and conflict is intense and then comes the best scenes ever, the hottest scene in my entire lives of movies and Tv series, the one in the church. 'Kneel, just Kneel'. D A M N. Hot. Okay, skipping to the ending, I am crying again. Not with the way they leave each other, but at the way fleabag leaves me, telling goodbye to me. There will never be season 3 but I would like to believe that he gives up God for her. How the fuck does he choose God over her, that damned fucker. He chose himself in the end and the story of choices has never been better than this. Okay sitting down to sea season 2 of Fleabag again. But the scene wasn't beautiful because it was just good, it was because we see through two seasons, who she is and what she is, and then this is thrown upon us like cold water.